Thursday, March 26, 2009


As I sit here, the future is playing and giggling in the living room while the past echoes in my head. I found a lump in my chest and am trying to stay calm and positive. I'm breezy.

This morning I made an appointment with my primary physician who will take a 2 second look, then refer me out to a specialist. I have to wait until the 16th of April before that happens. So. I'm trying not to obsess about it.

..but, the past echoes in my head. My father died in 2001 after about a 6 month battle with cancer. In 2007, my father-in-law died of the *same* type of cancer after a fierce 2 month battle. Most of me believes there's nothing to worry about, but then I remember that neither of these fathers in my life expected this either.

So. I looked at my three children and my husband with new eyes this morning. If nothing else, this whisper of fear has reminded me of what is important in my life. They are a wise-cracking, giggly, goofy, rough & tumble, trains-for-brains, beautiful, crazy-haired (or no haired) lot, and I cherish them.

From 2009 Patch Barracks

Jack dressed as a Polizei at his Scouts Career Day.

From 2009 Patch Barracks

Vic Trains-For-Brains Sims

From 2009 Patch Barracks

Bailey rolls over for the first time.


Jennifer said...

Oh gosh Laura, I'm saying a prayer for you right now. You will be in my thoughts and prayers for the next several weeks, and on my mind in general.

I can't tell you how close this hits to home. I've got close family history with similar things, and I've always just assumed "when" not "if," but in reading your post, it came crashing down that I've always blithely assumed "some day" was never "now." How so not true.

Comments in a blog seem somehow significantly inadequate. I pray the tests come back negative, and know that my thoughts are with you.

The Cook said...

Just wanted to let you know that the pictures from the donations purchased for the baby house are on the Karaganda Kids blog. Your money helped purchase almost half of the items. Lots od Medicine (not pictured), undies, toys and a cart to transport the laundry were all purchased two weeks ago. I am so thrilled and so thankful to you guys. There was $566 sent to Two hearts and aprox. 500 pairs of underwear sent to Two hearts and Global Orphan Team. Thanks form the bottom of my heart.

Jstar said...

Oh, Laura... thank you for posting so we know how to pray. Please let us know what the doctors say!

Steve, Kristine, Cole, Kade said...

What is going on? I am trying to read between the lines on this post.. but hate to assume things before I know the real truth. I hope that everything is OK. Let me know if there is anything I can do to help you out.

Tricia said...

Being a mom makes it extra tough to think about these things. Praying for you that everything will test out just fine. The kids are all so cute.