Saturday, April 26, 2008

Is this it?


Months ago when we received our region assignment, I had a crazy dream about flying to Kazakhstan. It all centered around the plane and flight attendents and was rife with preconceived notions of a former soviet era... I'm confident in saying that the plane we leave on tomorrow morning will not be made of concrete cinderblock. I told you it was a nutty dream.

We're all packed and feeling a little out of sorts. After all these months (years) of preparation & careful planning, the thought of just getting on a plane and finishing the adoption in a sort-of lock step from here on out is just weird. Sure, the important dates may change; court, flight home, return flight, etc. But, for the most part... we're pretty much just going through all the moves to finish this big dance. God willing.

In just a few days or even hours, we will meet our next child. I remember sitting in the hospital before labor was induced with my son Jack... It was a surreal feeling knowing that in this building, this German town, I will become a mother. Then finally, in this labor room, I'll see and hold the child I've dreamed of all my life and carried for 42 weeks.

I have a very similar feeling now; it's one of losing control and at the same time relishing every moment. This is the house we will eventually bring our child home to. These clothes I pack will be seen over and over in our cherished babyhouse photos for years to come. I'll wear this outfit with the pretty pink jacket when, God willing, a judge proclaims us parents again.

So, wish us luck. Knock on wood. Cross your fingers. Pray, pray, pray that all goes well and the only tears shed are of happiness.

7 comments:

Chris and Tricia said...

Wishing you lots of luck, fingers are crossed, and prayers are already sent up (and will continue). Hope you have a good trip and that things go smoothly for you. Look forward to hearing about your arrival and the story of meeting your child. Tricia

Regina said...

I think about the same things when picking out my wardrobe. These photos will be looked at over and over again, and a wonderful story to tell over and over. Talk about pressure for the perfect thing that is also comfortable.

I look forward to reading about those tears of happiness! Godspeed...

Julie said...

We all hope for a smooth trip. Our prayers are with you and the soon-to-be new member of the Simms family. Hugs and happy thoughts from the Hielens.

patricia.leduc said...

Candles are lit and breaths held in Vermont, just as they were when we awaited Jack's arrival. You, Bob and the newest member of our family are all at the foremost of our thoughts right now. I look at your pictures and wonder if this is the moment you're looking into your youngest son's eyes.

Love,

Patti and Mike

Angela said...

I hope that you are settling in in Kazakhstan and have met your little one. Best of luck!

acwright said...

Thinking of you each day. You are in our prayers. Can't wait to start reading stories of your babyhouse visits! Take care and we are praying for you. Allan and Claire

Jaclyn said...

We're praying for you and we're SO looking forward to meeting your new baby! God's speed to all of you... The Bramble